Hold On To That Flame

by Carol Hodge

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alan clark Fell in love with Carol's music after seeing her perform live a couple of years ago. Beautiful voice and intelligent humanitarian writing without sounding preachy, deserves some success. Favorite track: Stop The World In Its Tracks.
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released June 24, 2018

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Carol Hodge Manchester, UK

A 7 fingered pianist and singer, Carol is probably best known for her singing work with Steve Ignorant (co-founder of punk legends CRASS) on his Last Supper world tour. She continues to perform with Steve in the acoustic project Slice Of Life, as well as providing keys and BVs for the likes of Ryan Hamilton and the Harlequin Ghosts, plus occasional jaunts with The Membranes and Ginger Wildheart. ... more

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Track Name: Stop The World In Its Tracks
Stop The World In Its Tracks

A nation of miniature dog lovers
Who weep for the death of a lion
But spit vitriol neat at the thought of defeat
By a few desperate refugees
The minister’s cuts to the LCD
Are rabidly rejustified
He’s a person inside
Had a young son who died
Not a victim of ATOS crimes

If you listen closely in the night you’ll hear them
Cry themselves awake
I can’t be the only one around here
Who’s losing sleep and
Face the facts
We’re underwhelmed and overtaxed
But that won’t stop the world in its tracks

A city of commerce and factories
Now tall with apartments and cranes
But the word on the street is now mute and replete
‘Cause we don’t know each other’s names
In the house at the end lives an OAP
Forced to choose between eating and heat
No-one knows that she’s there
And it’s not like they don’t care
It’s just that they never meet

We’re overwhelmed and full of lack

One day we will dance round a brand new flag
When George and his Dragons are slain
We can melt apathy if we keep disagreeing
And promise you’ll always change
I cling to my hopes ever positive
I believe in a future that’s bright
We’ve a long way to go and
God only knows
That it won’t happen overnight

There’s one way in and no way back
Track Name: No Holds Barred
No Holds Barred

You say
Don’t worry about the small things
But small things
Are the things that kill
Haven’t you read that book about
The end of the world

You say you’re no holds barred for me
Your love it has no bars
You say you’re no holds barred for me
And I’m the only one
The only one who just can’t see

You say
Don’t worry about what’s between us
But what’s between us
Is something no-one else can see

You say you’re no holds barred for me
Your love it has no bars
You say you’re no holds barred for me
And I’m the only one
The only one who just can’t see
Track Name: You Don't Dream Enough
You Don’t Dream Enough

Non-ecstatic nomadic
Is the name of the lifestyle I lead these days
Minimalist and tragic
I’m now downwardly mobile to NFA

These words of wisdom
Are the only things that I heard today
So I’ll listen carefully ‘cause I’m trying to understand what they say

If you can’t fit all of your things into the back of your car
Then you own too much
If you can fit all of your dreams
Into the palm of one hand then you don’t dream enough

Forfeited stable income
For the ghost of a hand over fist
My career as an educated guesser
Suddenly just didn’t fit

These words of wisdom
Are the only things that I ate today
So I’ll chew them over
‘Cause I’m trying to live just by what they say

If you can’t fit all of your things into the back of your car
Then you own too much
If you can fit all of your dreams
Into the palm of one hand then you don’t dream enough

I had a love
That was sure as the stars that shine
And I gave it up
For some reasons I could not define

And it hurt like hell when I fell
And the universe pulled me to my feet
And I got some grit in my knees
And some more for my teeth
‘Cause I’m not gonna sit here and just admit defeat

If you can fit all of your things into the back of your car
Then you own enough
If you can fit all of your dreams
Into the palm of both hands then my god you’re in luck

If you can’t fit all of your things into the back of your car
Then you own you too much
If you can fit all of your dreams
Into the palm of one hand then you don’t dream enough
Track Name: First World Problems
First World Problems

Pick up your face
You’ve no need to feel down
Measure your problems with those all around
And you’ll see
It’s all first world
Don’t be so selfish
Don’t be introspective
Broaden your mind to the global perspective
And see
It’s all first world

So don’t give me your problems
I’ve got problems of my own
And I have no sympathy
For those who don’t know they’re born

Count your blessings and
Those around you who
Care about you would
Never doubt you cause you
Are not of this world
If you have somewhere to live
And you have food to eat
And you have clothes on your back and
Shoes on your feet
You’ve no right to complain

It’s not a disease if you can’t even see it
You just want attention
You just want to be in the
Centre of things
I know your type
It’s a new generation
When I was younger we never had
Problems like these
‘Cause we fought ‘til we dropped
And we worked ‘til we dropped
And it was all a bed of roses

So don’t give me your problems
I’ve got some of my own
And I have no sympathy
‘Cause you’re over dramatic
You’re over emphatic
You’re exaggerating
You’re always complaining
You don’t know you’re born
You don’t know who you are
You don’t know who I am
You don’t know what this is
Track Name: Your Heart Is Breaking
Your Heart Is Breaking

Well I wish you’d stop behaving
As though your heart is breaking
Or at least just admit it’s not about me

Well I know that you’ve got
A lot on that plate of yours
I’m not going anywhere
So won’t you just please let me help you clear
Oh let me help you clear it

Don’t throw it all away
Just to prove me wrong
I’m not gonna beg at your feet
But I can’t move on
Knowing something’s gone

So let it all fail with me
Let the sky fall like the end of a scene
If everything dies then it’s
Just a matter of time
But that time inbetween
That’s where I’ll be

Well I wish you’d stop to listen
To all the love I’m giving
Then the weight of your doubts
Will cut us both free

Well I know that you’ve tried
To trust in this world of ours
I know that you’ve fallen down
But please just give me your hands right now
And I’ll pull you back to safety
Track Name: Fallibility
Fallibility

What hurt the most
Is that you never said goodbye to me
What cut the deepest
Is not your aggression
But your inability to see your fallibility

Perfection never walked through my front door so let’s
Let’s just stop pretending it did
And I could have loved you for all of your faults but you
You couldn’t hold back to let me

My waking hours were spent
On the hook of your attentions
And now my evenings are anxiety bent
‘Cause I can’t see an end to this
Confusion

Now all that’s left between us
Are scorched wires melting the path from Mars to Venus
And I would have walked for 3000 miles to be on your planet but you
You threw water on my map

Perfection never walked through my front but let’s
Oh well let’s just start pretending that it did
And I would have loved you for all that you are but you
You couldn’t hold yourself back to let me in
Track Name: Weather The Storm
Weather The Storm

It’s been 28 days since I
Walked out on you
Now I just wanna work for myself
It took an awful long time to
Build up to this
But if I’d waited any longer it would have
Ended in hell

I don’t believe any more in
Waking up early
I don’t want to compare and compete
But if that’s all that we’re built for
I don’t wanna be there when the system breaks

So
Fly on little dreams
You’re not welcome anymore
How dare you distract me for so long
There’s been a lot of bad blowings
Been going on
And I don’t know if I’ll weather the storm
No I don’t know if I’ll weather the storm

I dreamed of this day
For so long
Now it’s here I don’t know what to
Do with myself
From the outside in it’s all
Rhythms and sins
But this time spent alone well the
The company’s killing me softly

Living in the moment’s fine but
Moments are rare
I don’t know what to do without
You in my hair
If this is the universe then I
Accept my fate
But it’s not what I
It can’t be what I
Signed up for

So
Fly on little dreams
You’re not welcome anymore
How dare you distract me for so long
There’s been a lot of bad blowings
Been going on
And I don’t know if I’ll weather the storm
No I don’t know if I’ll weather the storm
Track Name: Bullet In The Moonlight
Bullet In The Moonlight

Even though there’s nothing wrong
There’s still something going on
Something to change
And as I listen to the sound
Of the world as it falls down
Nothing looks or sounds strange

Maybe it’s because I’m already dead
Maybe it’s because I’m gone inside
Maybe it’s because I don’t believe a word that you said
Maybe I can’t and that’s just the ride

But I can see a bullet the shape of your head
I can see it glisten in the moonlight
But it’s pointing
This way instead
And I don’t know how to escape its flight

Maybe it’s because it’s all in my head
Maybe it’s because I’m wrong this time
But I’m wondering when it’s going to end
‘Cause I’ve
Been here for the longest time

I can see a bullet the shape of your head
I can see it glisten in the moonlight
But it’s pointing
This way instead
And I don’t know how to escape its flight
Track Name: The Witch Is Dead
The Witch Is Dead

The moment that I heard the witch was dead
I wondered what her mother thought
If all the years of memories pure and true
Could overcome what she had done

It’s not easy to try
And see it through her eyes
We all start the same
But we’re products of
The world our brains create

So go home
And hold the one you love
That little bit tighter tonight
And sleep snug
Safe and sound because you know
There’s one less touch of evil
One less grain of rotten alive
Tonight
The witch is dead

An hour later on the word had spread
We hear the words the world has weft
The disbelief disintegrates the jokes are read
Like cartwheels turn inside our heads

And it’s easy to hear
The truth that gives us cheer
An escape for a while
A diversion from
The world our brains create

So go home
And hold the one you love
That little bit tighter tonight
And sleep smug
Safe and sound because you know
There’s one less touch of evil
One less grain of rotten alive
Tonight
The witch is dead
The witch is dead!
Track Name: Undone
Undone

This soul
That started out as wrong
Has come undone

Thanatos he takes my hand in his own
Waiting for the day when I will take the throne
And though I like the offer I’m destined to decline
For so many others have souls more worthy of that station than mine

This soul
That started out as wrong
Has come undone

In the evenings when the sun has disappeared
I draw my sheets up tight and feel his presence near
A tightness in my chest, the taste of sour breath
I steel my resolve and await the morning to be sure he has left

This soul
That started out as wrong
Has come undone

I know one day soon I’ll meet him face to face
Begin the danse macabre and quicken to his pace
But ‘til that combat mortal rears its final head
I’ll keep on escaping the headless horseman and ride his back to death
Track Name: Bear With Me
Bear With Me

I am the death of parties
The full averted gaze
The crossing over of the road
The look the other way
I murder conversations
With dull inanity
I redirect all subject matter to the woe is me

I know I act this way
It’s killing me a little every day
Bear with me while I try
Try to make a change

I say it doesn’t matter
I dig my heels in deep
Resolve to rewire faulty brain
Each night before I sleep
And when you try to help me
I freeze and push away
Distrustful of assistance
Solitude’s the only way

I know I act this way
It’s killing me a little every day
Bear with me while I try
Try to make a change

I watch the normal people
Envy the ignorant bliss
I’ve seen behind the curtain and I know
I should not exist
I’m tired of my own voice
I ache to start anew
Erase each element of me
To create something good

I know I act this way
It’s killing me a little every day
I know I act this way
And I don’t know what else to say
But bear with me while I try
Try to make a change

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